The day after what is described as the worst mass shooting in Swedish history, Tuesday's events at Campus Risbergska in Örebro are still difficult to comprehend.
I read an article about it just now, but I can't grasp that I was involved in that. I'm still in shock, says the teacher, who prefers to remain anonymous.
It's so horrific. Right outside the room where we barricaded ourselves, there were several dead bodies.
"Vibrated in the wall"
Shortly after 12:30, the teacher, along with about ten colleagues, was in the small lunchroom when sudden bangs were heard in a nearby classroom. The teacher initially wondered if a fight had broken out.
The wall between the lunchroom and the classroom where the shooting took place vibrated. But it didn't sound like shots, so I thought they were having a disaster drill, since they're going to be nurse assistants.
Pretty soon, both the teacher and colleagues realized that the situation was very serious.
We barricaded ourselves in. One of my colleagues called 112 and then we sat quietly and whispered. Almost the whole time, there was a fire alarm blaring. It just thundered in the small room.
"Then I break down"
At the same time, the teacher describes a calm that was broken only several hours later when the police came to evacuate around 2 pm.
We heard the special task force coming down the corridor and shouting that it was the police. They broke down the door and when we were about to leave, the police told us to close our eyes. We walked through a long corridor and there was so much blood. Then I broke down, says the teacher.
On Wednesday, crisis support will be offered to the teacher and colleagues. Family and friends have also been a great support after the school shooting.
It's clear it will take time to process. But I'm alive, and now is now, and then is then, says the teacher.
Screamed in panic
One of those who visited the memorial site at the school on Wednesday is Alvin Strandkulle. He is a friend of one of the injured and was in the vicinity when the shooting occurred.
I heard the shots being fired, people screamed in panic and fled for their lives.
The event has shaken him thoroughly.
I live here, I was born here, and I live here. It shakes you really badly, especially when you were fifty to a hundred meters from the event, it's tough. You can't really sleep properly.
